Means I'll be outta here, losers >:D back on Monday, then having another party. Anyone I know IRL is welcome to come and some people are gonna be forced. In the meantime, stay safe and party in my name!
and...I would love some birthday shoutouts T_T
Everyone already hates fundies, but these kinds of people really give atheism a bad name. In this guy's own words, he's already a moral person who treats people right, but how can he say that if he looks down upon people who haven't done anything wrong but believe in a higher power?
Thanks for listening :<
New layout, finally done. No, it's not the FO3 one I promised like a year ago. It's STEVETASTIC.
(Some smartass is gonna laugh at me, I can feel it.)
So aside from the layout, not much is happening. But now, I can finally focus on this journal again. And write, hooray!
Unfortunately, I've been having the terrible feeling of being alone and depressed. I can't describe it, but it kind of feels like there's nobody out there. Maybe writing will cheer me up.
also, no Robocop porn on dA is reallllly surprising
Alright I KNEW I was gonna get zombie porn but NOT ON PAGE 2 DAMNIT
What’s the last thing you wrote?
The sad beginnings to a porn. I am really out of writing shape.
Was it any good?
Yes, until I ran into the roadblock of dialogue. Once I assimilate with Selphi I'll be fine.
What’s the first thing you wrote that you still have?
Funny enough, a story from 3rd or 4th grade about how Alucard was my uncle, as was Richter, and how we had a cool thanksgiving. I should scan it one day; there's even little wolves and bats drawn around it.
Write poetry?
Only for birthdays, depression, or when inspired.
Angsty poetry?
My depressed poetry is soooo angsty. One thing I can say for myself is that I never wrote about having a dark soul.
Favourite genre of writing?
...romance... Or horror!
Most fun character you’ve ever created?
Uh... I usually have fun with all of my characters (notable exception: Simon), but I tend to favor flirts, shy people, and the flamboyantly gay. Overall I would think of my D&D characters - Lisear, because of his dauntless optimism and sunshine spirit in the face of hardship - or maybe Van, the elven muscleman dance troupe member. Writing wise, I love Spire - playing him, writing him, getting into his little fictional mind... Generally the characters I think are fun are the most annoying for everyone else.
Most annoying character you’ve ever created?
Simon. Mainly because I just don't like him anymore. As for characters in my writing, maybe Voden because all his dialogue ends up the same way: assholey.
Best plot you’ve ever created?
Probably...the guy who volunteers for "robotic possesion exercises" (i.e. - brain in robot) gets released, but his body is long gone. Rotted away. Dead. He was one of the first experiments and stuff happens. Disheartened he returns home, but the body wasn't styled to look like him so his wife refuses to believe it's him and he ends up being wanted by the cops (Officer, this scary robot is trying to break into my home!). So now he just wants to convince the world that he really is a person and he is really alive.
Coolest plot twist you’ve ever created?
The protagonist isn't the scientist. (I was gonna post this here, so I'll update this later.)
How often do you get writer’s block?
Constantly. T_T
Write fan fiction?
Shamefully, yes... But my fanfiction has gotten me acclaim in school before, so I guess it's good?
Do you type or write by hand?
Both, but I prefer the emotionless and cold computer to writing. When I hand write I have a tendency to doodle in the margins and stop writing. It always happens, so I don't do it unless I need to. Then I always feel self-conscious, too, because at least on a computer you can look busy. When you hand-write, people always ask, "what are you writing?" and then you have to say "the morning routines of Fourth Flame, currently I am describing his sunbathing habits".
Do you save everything you write?
I try to. I figure when I'm an old lady or a famous writer I'll look back on all my old stuff and laugh or reminisce or maybe improve on my ideas. I have a lot of good ideas, but technique maybe not so much and why is my keyboard squeaking?!
Do you ever go back to an idea after you’ve abandoned it?
Depends. I have gotten some bad ideas before, deemed them bad, and scrapped them for eternity. If I get stumped with the direction of the plot, or otherwise stuck, then I'll go back later and patch it up. Sometimes the ideas I scrap aren't half-bad and I salvage them later, either modified or in a different story or whatever. Sometimes the idea is just not gonna work, like Lydia dragging her ghost-beau's decaying body to a meat freezer and preserving it. Then you run into the question: if not that, how does the body stay fresh? Hmmmm...
What’s your favourite thing you’ve written?
Either one of my angsty poems ("Blood Rage", I believe it was called), the beginning of FD, or maybe the Alyssa fanfic I wrote for the journalism capstone thingie. I also liked my second-person story where you die. :D
What’s everyone else’s favourite story that you’ve written?
Um...I dunno. Amy liked all the PS things I gave her, Tina loved the Leo/Marissa thing I wrote over in
bluesong, and otherwise...I don't know.
Do you ever show people your work?
Not normally. Call me shy.
Did you ever write a novel?
I have tried many many times, but in the end my short attention span and lack of organization does me over.
Ever written romance or angsty teen drama?
Yes and yes. I write romance all the time, even when I don't want to or don't mean to, and angsty teen drama was all too common back when I actually was an angsty teen.
What’s your favourite setting for your characters?
Raccoon City. I know what you're thinking, "the one time you actually played RE you were whimpering and crying and scared". Well, I played it TWICE, thank you, although George totally ditched me the second time, and that doesn't nullify my preference. I should actually just say "scary zombie invasion" since I love the zombie-apocalypse-urgency thing and I love to write with it.
How many writing projects are you working on right now?
Um...actually writing, or planning to write? If the former, 1. If the latter...3. I still have two sci-fi's to do.
Do you want to write for a living?
Yes, but I also want to eat. I figure I can be a cool scientist and have a pen name on the side for my writing. When I retire I'll be a cool old lady, writing books, exploring the world, and owning a gazillion cats.
Have you ever won an award for your writing?
In school! Yaaaaay! Actually, it was for my newspaper writing. Not encouraging, is it? :(
Ever written anything in script or play format?
That's how I do most of my RPs (does that count? no?). Overall I have too little experience and I am too awkward with it, and I also have the tendency to put comments in the stage directions.
What are your five favourite words?
Moist, sunshine, rainbow, bone, abberation
Do you ever write based on yourself?
All of my characters have some part of me in them, and I think it's really unavoidable when you're the one investing time, energy, and spirit into the character. For situations, I used to routinely pull them from my life when they were interesting. Now I just pull them from other peoples'. :X
What character have you created that is most like yourself?
The one that goes "hell yeah!" the most? I dunno, maybe Lisear because I would go after the hot pirate captain too. I really really tried to distance my personality from my characters' ever since the HEARTBREAKING ANNOUNCEMENT when Chris told me long ago my characters were like me :( Overall probably the characters in the stories made from my dreams, because it is usually me in the dream instead. Unless I write about the gender-switching gangster (no, not kidding).
Where do you get ideas for your characters?
Everywhere. Words, faces, clothes, patterns, the news, the past...absolutely everywhere.
Do you ever write based on your dreams?
See above! Yes, frequently. My subconscious is very creative and leads to interesting plots I would not normally come up with. Can I think of an example that is not lame...? Being trapped in a hotel, with each ascending floor being another dangerous situation, from guys with guns to dim lights, monsters, traps, you name it. At the top we're allowed to escape, but just how many people can get through all of that?
Do you favour happy endings, sad endings or cliff-hangers?
Happy endings 4eva. Cliff-hangers get me mad, sad endings get me depressed and I am really over with being depressed. I try to work happy endings in as much as I can, even if it's not necessarilly "realistic". Although the people who always demand sad endings in the name of realism aren't much better (you hear me, mean Amazon book reviewers?!).
Have you ever written based on an artwork you’ve seen?
Yes. I don't remember what but I know I have.
Are you concerned with spelling and grammar as you write?
Yes, definitely. I slack in AIM, LJ, texts...pretty much everywhere. But writing is one of those things where constantly broken sentences, bad capitalization, bad spelling, or bad punctuation can completely remove the illusion.
Ever write anything in chatspeak (how r u?)
Yes! It was a silly little thing I wrote thinking "what if Lydia had AIM".
Entirely in L337?
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Was that question appalling and unwriterly?
Haha no.
Does music help you write?
Not if I have my normal 20-song playlist, but listening to songs that fit the mood I'm writing bring me into the zone. (My best song for depression is Fallen - Sarah McLachlan.)
Quote something you’ve written. Whatever pops into your head.
"I am a man, Marissa!" because I just read it :D I really can't quote off the top of my head. I'll go find something later.
Anyway, I went back to the 3.5 game. Well, Dionte and I did yesterday. Everyone hates making a 3.5 character, but it's got a lot more soul than the newer edition. Could I make a bard made of rainbows in 4e? Absolutely not. I could also not make him a fraction of the badass he currently is.
So, the last time we left off (and I haven't done a summary in a while so I'm not going to cut this and if you don't like it, talk to my fists) was...actually, I don't have a single clue. Did I cover the whole cursed elven crown thing? 'Cause they fixed that. The evil fairies? 'Cause they fixed that too. How about my new ship courtesy of the drow queen - thanks, mommy! - with a giant motherfucking DRAGON HEAD on it? Yeah, guess which ship isn't being destroyed by the demon army?! Oh. Wait. Didn't mention that, I guess.
There's a huge army being mobilized by the big evil guy. Yeah, evil guy, armies, we've been there done that. Well, this is a really big army. And this evil guy is really powerful. If we'd done like we were supposed to do previously and actually gotten the slackers back together to game, then MAYBE he would be dead by now and we wouldn't have to worry about this. But noooo Mike has to get married, and Ramon has to move away, and Saud has to go get a life. What jerks. (By the way, great news, my brother moved out!) So the Tyrant yet lives, and it's all their faults.
The Tyrant decides that since the drow are such wonderful and freedom-loving people (bear with me for a second, this is sarcasm) that he's going to kill them all. Well, mostly Lisear, I'd wager, since he spreads love and happiness everywhere and has slowly been perverting the drow from ruthless pirates and strict enforcers of regulated trade to a bunch of hippies.
Well, back to the army. A big naval army was launched and the wonder duo had to deal with them first. Which wasn't that hard since...druid. Really, taking a druid anywhere pretty much means you're going to win. (The spells, not the wildshape, FYI.) To help fight the huge army, they go and get the most powerful guy in the world to help out the little fleet. They put him on my ship. The awesome one, with the dragon head? Hell yeah.
After that's done, they head out into the Tyrant's land to intercept his army. Finding an army of, say, 1000, the intrepid adventurers decide to go ahead and try to take it out. And they totally do. A dragon helped, but they could've done it without him.
So you're thinking, if a group of 3 can trash 1,000 demons then a group of 5 can totally trash 100,000, right? No? Well, shucks, that means we're all going to die on Sunday. What's even worse is that apparently even though everyone has a paladin, we can't FIND and paladins (or even clerics!) to come help us out and smite and maybe banish or whatever. Now, if the guy was smart he would have a big portal to hell open the whole time they were marching through. But I am certainly not going to mention this to anyone, since that'll give Chris the idea and then we're never going to win.
Here's the other thing, too. It's not just demons in this army, it's devils and normal human people too. The demon/devil thing I can kind of work out and I'm not really that worried about the normal people (in any given day, I can split their heads open and Dionte can trap them underground). Still, the concept of the Two Great Evils setting aside their differences for weeks at a time is a little scary. We're still totally gonna kick their asses though. (Since after this, Niel will be the new kind and Lisear can finally swindle his boyfriend into marrying him). Chris made sure to say, "I'm not going to pull any punches!" but let's see what he says when he can't find his steering wheel.
Oh, I got FE:DS, too. Not too bad, having fun, but dammit why does everyone have to die?! And Marth has this HUGE case of muttonface.
I must beg your indulgence a little while longer. I am not yet able to send for you. Stay in Megaton. Once my business has concluded, I will send for you, and we will live happily as man and woman.
The memory of your beauty and sweet aroma lingers in my memory...
Have patience my love.
Soon. Soon we shall be together again!
Your's very truly,
Burke
At least now good old Blood is competiton free, I guess.
Working on NaNoWriMo (barely).
Favorite PS Character
Black Death! For those of you just turning in, he is part one of my ninja trio, and the character I have with the best personality. Not best as in "nice" or "generous" or "righteous" or anything, just the easiest guy to have IC and the coolest guy to have for interactions. His backstory also kicks all kinds of ass.
Favorite Totally Non-canon Pairing
... :D Chi/Black Death, since he dies and it's tragic? I just have a soft spot for him, okay? :<
Favorite Totally Canon Pairing
Sajrah/Rosetta, especially in her later incarnations when she becomes more and more disturbed that this guy won't leave her alone. It's the whole crux of Sajrah's backstory and she's definitely a main character, even though through the 5/6 years I've spent on PS and its crossover land, she only had one line (and she was still dead).
Favorite Totally Platonic Relationship
Airkeas and his dad. I love the love/hate thing between them. I don't know why, but they've always been a couple of my favorites (even if Airkeas is a jerk and a wifebeater)...
Favorite Not-Mine Character
Is a three way tie between Bharet, Verite, and Jin. D: I like Bharet's... everything, because he's way cool <3. Verite is a riot, especially when he has to deal with Black Death. Jin is not only SMOOTH, but has also progressed significantly as a character and FREE EELS. WHERE? will always be the pinnacle of humor in my eyes.
Favorite CL Pairing
There honestly isn't one I don't like, but I really enjoy Chi/Verite because they're always so friggin' upbeat, and I don't think anything depressing has happened to them yet. It lacks drama. Kind of like a safe haven in pairing world. I'm also fond of Jin/Fyorsin, very much because they're huge gossips ("HAY DID YOU HEAR WHAT HAPPENED TO NITRIGH?" "NO, DID YOU HEAR WHAT HAPPENED TO SYLPH?") and because Jin is cool.
Favorite CL Platonic Relationship
A tie between Sylph and Paolo, and BD and Verite. I think I like the "angry/serious authority figures inspire fear" thing.
Favorite Non-Human
I already put Jin, so he's out; and although I'm very attached to Fyorsin, she's not my favorite. I'm going to say Elindael, mainly because he manages to be cool and a complete loser at the same time. Plus, I love doctors. >> Nereus is an almost-tie, but I can't describe why. He always reminds me of the everyman.
Favorite WTF Moment
Jin being smooth. I have to replace one of my theorums about him...
Favorite Jin Theorum
Theorum #1, but only in small amounts. Like following Fyorsin around on dates, not sitting in a fire boat and crying.
Favorite Pairing That Would Never Work
Since, in Amy's words, Sajrah is "the only guy who Bharet would bend for", I'm saying Jin/Sajrah if only because it'd undoubtedly be hilarious.
Favorite PS Backstory
Black Death. He's adapted so well, and I'm so proud of him <3
... I feel awkward.



Hi! I'm Ash! I felt like poor Steve needed a tribute or something, so lo, here is a layout for him. My journal is pretty ordinary, but every now and then you get something interesting on here. :3